Attention! Attention, please!

Have you ever been in a group of people in the midst a heated conversation and you want to put in your two cents but you're a polite person whom waits for people to finish speaking before giving them your input but every time you try and say something you are always cut off?

OR

Maybe you're in a relationship, long distance let's say, and your S.O is incredibly busy with specific things, and you know it to be true, but you just got surgery done and haven't heard from them in a day or so and you wait to see if they say anything and another day passes and another until you realize they either don't care or don't remember and when you DO hear from them, it's never a long conversation but rather a question about something insignificant like "do you remember where I put my blue sock?"

I don't think I'm a bad person if I want attention every now and then. All my life I feel as though I've walked all over and I allow it to happen because I am not the kind of person to make enemies.

But it has gotten to a point where, even in my relationship, I don't get attention and I'm fucking sick of it. This has been going on for almost 7 months and I am balancing in the middle of seeing how much longer I can stand it and giving up.

All I want is some recognition that I exist to you!

Send me something cute on facebook
Text me something MEANINGFUL during the day
Call me at least once every two days
Do something for me. Anything. Literally, it can be anything at this point. Like a flower you found in the garbage. I'll take it. It's better than the nothing I am getting now.

Just...woof.

Food

Since my tonsillectomy, food has become a rarity in my life. I never realized what a strong relationship I had with food until it was gone...

However, I am a determined little minx if I have anything to say about it! And, although it probably wasn't the best for my throat, my psyche was incredibly pleased.

Now, if anyone of you have had their tonsils removed or anything similar to the pain of your throat exploding into your ears, than you will understand me when I say "pointy and hot foods are a no no". And, even if this has never happened to you, I am sure you can fathom some sort of imagery as to why this may be a bad idea.

SO!

Being the ignorant lover of food that I am, I challenged myself.

Foolishly.

I challenged myself foolishly. 

I was getting REAL sick of water and Naked juice. There were a few days in there where that was LITERALLY all I ingested. No substance of any kind. And you may be thinking "but Naked juice is basically a meal in a cup" and you would be right...to an extent. It does fill you up, but the flavor gets old so fast and sometimes your mouth just wants a giant Angus hamburger cooked on a charcoal grill with 3 strips of peppercorn rubbed bacon, peach salsa and Makers Mark brand BBQ sauce...

So, I made it a goal to eat something I wanted to and the only thing I had on hand was Pizza Rolls. Now, don't get me wrong, Pizza Rolls are my middle school past time. I am surprised I am not 200lbs heavier from the amount I ate after school...every day...for years. THEIR JUST SO FREAKING GOOD!!

So I made 4 of them, microwave style (since oven style would produce a crispier crust) waited for them to cool off a bit and slowly nibbled on the outskirts of the rolls.

At first I was like "Okay, yeah. This is working. I can totally swallow th-" I stopped because when I DID try and swallow it, my throat was not having it. But I was determined and so I forced it down nibble by nibble until the were all gone.

Was I happy with myself? Yes.
Could I have potentially damaged my throat? I doubt it, but for the sake of suspense, YES
Would I do it again? I don't know...somehow, I think all I needed was the small break of insanity to put my back together for a few days. But, we will see what happens on day 8 and go from there.

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EXTRA

Other food I have dreamt about while on this heinous "diet":

• Taco Bell
• Pizza (in general)
• Olive Garden's salad and breadsticks
• Potbellys
• Jersey Mikes
• Panera Bread (general)
• Wendy's spicy chicken nuggets
• Bacon
• Bacon
• SO MUCH BACON
• Toast
• Chili
• Honey Nut Cheerios (and I don't even like cereal that much)
• Pickles

That One Time I Got A Tonsillectomy

So I am currently on day 3 of my recovery from my tonsillectomy. I am 22 and, let me tell you, it isn't as bad as the internet tells you it is. Who knew the internet could lie to you?

Any way, I have been lying in bed eating pudding, popsicles and drinking all the water I can manage to swallow (which is not as much as I would like)

So this is for all of you 20-somethings hoping to take the leap into an emptier throat.

Day of SuRgErY (it's supposed to look spooky?):

First off, my friend, don't freak out. It is a super simple procedure that takes 25 minutes, tops. If you go somewhere that is known for doing mostly tonsillectomy's, you should have no problems. They put specific narcotics in your IV to 1.) knock you out and 2.) prevent you from vomiting all over the place from the anesthesia.

Second, have food ready and waiting in your fridge. Pudding, Jell-O, popsicles, gatorade, water, etc. Stay away from citrus drinks and food because the acidity will stab at your throat like a man shanking you in a prison courtyard; it's not pleasant.

The other days (so far):

• you will drool an odd amount. I noticed this just recently but every time I wanted to take a nap it was like I hadn't swallowed in years and all of my saliva would run out of my mouth without my consent. Although, it was between that and swallowing it and I just didn't want to deal with that pain. Yes, it hurts to swallow, but if you take your pain meds as directed by your doctor than it's only a mild pain.

• It will hurt to swallow but you have to power through it. If you don't get liquids (mostly water) in you, bad things will happen. BAD THINGS! Just, don't do it. Good thing there is pain medication!

• If you want to eat some solid food day 1, then do it. As long as it isn't something spicy, pokey, scratchy or too hot of a tempurature. I had a cold pasta noodles (Suddenly Salad, Classic) for 2 days and it was beautiful. The noodles are so small you can just swallow them whole, no need to chew (which also can be a bit tricky)

• You may hear people say "Don't sleep!" but I don't listen to those people because I love to sleep. And so I did and do! I usually like to nap right after I take the pain medication. Because 1.) it sort of calms your entire body down and makes you relaxed and 2.) it numbs he throat a bit so you don't have to worry about painful swallowing. And VIOLA, you are out like a light...for about 4 hours until the pain medication wears off. But that's okay because it just so happens you can take it every 4 hours so you just take it again and go back to sleep. It is a beautifully vicious cycle. <-- This is what my meds say. Do as yours say. Not as I say.

That's all I really have for you so far. Like I said, I am only 3 days in...

HANG IN THERE EMPTY THROATERS!!